i HATE  CSY

as well as CMA!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

happy mom and dad?!?! o never mind you i will never be able to make you happy!  i'm sorry that i can't be perfect, i REALLY TRULY am. but that doesn't phase you. SORRY!

THIS IS MY LAST ENTRY SO GOODBYE EVERYONE!

wow i am NEVER doing that ever again. HORRIBLE!!!!!!!

well i am pooped and so tired. so ttyl goodnight

this will prolly b the last entry till next sunday. i am doing this thing. i am kinda excited but then kinda not. i don't know what to expect. i am really nervous.

well this has been a horrible week i am so glad that i get to get away from my parents. i have not talked to my dad since sunday morning. i prolly will not talk to him until friday night either, if that. well i guess i will let  u kno how things went when i get back on sunday afternoon. <3 ya

<3Lindsay

I'M SORRY I CAN'T BE PERFECT!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

um....... today ....... hahaha......horrible!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! no words to describe it. we can just say that my parents don't realize that i can't be perfect like supposofly they think that they are. UGHHHHHHHHHHHHHHH. so i am grounded for today and tomorro and tuesday and i have to be in bed with lights out by 11:00!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!1

(sigh) WELL, i did ,however,,, big surprise,,,, have fun with my sister!  YA  we filled up my neighbor's pool and "swam" in it. even though i was too cold to actually get in. it was fun though. right after we finally got in, my other neighbor came n asked us to get in her (real) pool. so we did. Mocha came over today and ate my hair. i swear she is one of the only things that keeps me alive day to day. i love that dog!  well i "get the chance" to go to amish world tomorro  grrrr. sooooooooooooo...... now that i told u my freeking life story, i will ttyl. <3 ya

Lindsay

"Perfect"

Hey dad look at me
Think back and talk to me
Did I grow up according to plan?
And do you think I'm wasting my time doing things I wanna do?
But it hurts when you disapprove all along

And now I try hard to make it
I just want to make you proud
I'm never gonna be good enough for you
I can't pretend that
I'm alright
And you can't change me

'Cuz we lost it all
Nothing lasts forever
I'm sorry
I can't be perfect
Now it's just too late and
We can't go back
I'm sorry
I can't be perfect

I try not to think
About the pain I feel inside
Did you know you used to be my hero?
All the days you spent with me
Now seem so far away
And it feels like you don't care anymore

And now I try hard to make it
I just want to make you proud
I'm never gonna be good enough for you
I can't stand another fight
And nothing's alright

'Cuz we lost it all
Nothing lasts forever
I'm sorry
I can't be perfect
Now it's just too late and
We can't go back
I'm sorry
I can't be perfect

Nothing's gonna change the things that you said
Nothing's gonna make this right again
Please don't turn your back
I can't believe it's hard
Just to talk to you
But you don't understand

'Cuz we lost it all
Nothing lasts forever
I'm sorry
I can't be perfect
Now it's just too late and
We can't go back
I'm sorry
I can't be perfect

'Cuz we lost it all
Nothing lasts forever
I'm sorry
I can't be perfect
Now it's just too late and
We can't go back
I'm sorry
I can't be perfect

"Welcome To My Life"

Do you ever feel like breaking down?
Do you ever feel out of place?
Like somehow you just don't belong
And no one understands you
Do you ever wanna run away?
Do you lock yourself in your room?
With the radio on turned up so loud
That no one hears you screaming

No you don't know what it's like
When nothing feels all right
You don't know what it's like
To be like me

To be hurt
To feel lost
To be left out in the dark
To be kicked when you're down
To feel like you've been pushed around
To be on the edge of breaking down
And no one's there to save you
No you don't know what it's like
Welcome to my life

Do you wanna be somebody else?
Are you sick of feeling so left out?
Are you desperate to find something more?
Before your life is over
Are you stuck inside a world you hate?
Are you sick of everyone around?
With their big fake smiles and stupid lies
While deep inside you're bleeding

No you don't know what it's like
When nothing feels all right
You don't know what it's like
To be like me

To be hurt
To feel lost
To be left out in the dark
To be kicked when you're down
To feel like you've been pushed around
To be on the edge of breaking down
And no one's there to save you
No you don't know what it's like
Welcome to my life

No one ever lied straight to your face
And no one ever stabbed you in the back
You might think I'm happy but I'm not gonna be okay
Everybody always gave you what you wanted
You never had to work it was always there
You don't know what it's like, what it's like

To be hurt
To feel lost
To be left out in the dark
To be kicked when you're down
To feel like you've been pushed around
To be on the edge of breaking down
And no one's there to save you
No you don't know what it's like (what it's like)

To be hurt
To feel lost
To be left out in the dark
To be kicked when you're down
To feel like you've been pushed around
To be on the edge of breaking down
And no one's there to save you
No you don't know what it's like
Welcome to my life
Welcome to my life
Welcome to my life

yesterday i went to ky's baseball game..... BOOOOOOORIIIIING!!!! but thats ok i will b there 4 him. then i went home n took a shower and then ky came n picked me up and we went to his house and took Erica to her house to get her medicine. then when we got home, Brian wanted to go to DQ so we did. Diddy got a french vanilla moolatte and it was spilling everywhere so he gave it to me and it spilled all over me!! grrrrrrrrrr. hahahahaha. well then kyle took me home at 10:40 and i called him at 11:03 and we talked till 1:15. fun fun. haha. ().

<3 Lindsay